My Name: Junwei
My Age: 24 years old
Hometown: Bendemeer
serving nation 12th June 2009
ORD on 9th June 2009
Life is just like a melody
I've become what i can't be
Sunday, May 31, 2009 | 10:17 PM | Top
9.30pm... i just wake up... look at my handphone... checking for sms or any miss call... no miss call but received one sms from hui shi... asking me whether is there any place near rivervale mall that can cheque in... called my cousin for this enquiry and told hui shi that the nearest is at compass point... chat with her a little... just hang up only... and when i see my calendar, its like its been a year... i have to stop here some where some time... army, i'm coming... but i'm still not ready yet... but its alright... coz suprise is everywhere... i won't think that why my life is like this instead, i will only hate myself for why am i doing all this... its alright coz at least i see it through with my own eyes or ears... for the better or worst, just hope everything is fine now and in the future... i can only play my guitar now or slack by merlion... durian for an emo boy everyday isn't too much aye?~~~ or am i really asking too much? indeed... if thats the case, i will just ask for a simple life... that things will just comes and goes... dun ask me why i'm blogging like this... coz i find myself in chaos already... dun ask why i'm in chaos... coz i dun wanna know why... dun ask me why i dun wanna know why... coz i dun wanna know the truth... and you can say that i'm an idiot or a stupid or hmm maybe childish... but this is all i can only do... good luck to me... Sunday, 31th May 09 blog @ 2226hrs | 6:26 PM | Top
thx to the website mylene gave me, i've changed my blog skin successfully... :) thank you...erm some thing here is missing due to my noobiness in blog haiz...shud had done this earlier haha anyway kinda feel like the stone had been finally gone off to some where else le hmm well today practically doing nth...the only thing is that the "wait" had been making me stop at one point or rather...wad shud i do? haiz...hope that this "wait" is worth it... Sunday, 31th May 09 blog @ 1829hrs | 5:04 AM | Top
today was suppose to go to choon yan's chalet but nvr go coz dun feel like going...met mich to pass her the speaker she wanted...then go home get bathe and change and then meet Guoz...went to his house and slack for the whole day...haha we were practically gambling haha! playing bacarat online using real money some more its in US $...not bag leh i wont 5 rounds and guoz win the rest too :) today we won about 100USD haha not bad huh...haha ya be4 that we went to hougang area for dinner...met one of his fren name kelvin...walk around and kio 2 iphone haha! win money and still got business to make TODAY is really our day man! we were too excited and decided to go tangong pagar for some drink...but we stayed there for about an hour plus and we decided to leave for home...reach home about 2am plus and was eating cup noodle while watching con-air haha! i just love Nicolas Cage! manly and really and idol to me :) haiz went to her blog again...i shuden had done that... zzz saw some bo liaoz netizen disturbing her again...guess she's gonna change her link again and if she does, i wont stalk her out anymore...anyway i've already change my link and nvr really tell anyone here so that she wont have to read my irritating blog ever again...well i was angry why ppl have to go and disturb other ppl when someone is real down for some reason...anyway think about it again...hmm its none of my business so ahh just f care bah i guess coz since she dun wan me to be her fren also... haha anyway today was happy but haiz still a feel a bit down...but it seems like there's a glimspe of hope and sign already i can see...if this carry on, i might get wad i wanted DEARLY~~~yea! hmm all i can do now is just keep her accompanied... i found out lately... all along, the man in her heart... has always been someone else's name. i've never disregarded comfort and given my all to someone... you are going through a hard time... i'm willing to be with you and take the pain with you... no matter how bumpy the road is, i'll walk it with you. i can only imagine wads going to happen the past few weeks and these days...its been hell for me...why she has to come back when i thought that i've already forgotten about her but i feel happy that when she's in needs, she will come and look for me though...well enough of this emo-ness...i'm going to bathe and watch one more show and then off to bed :) blog next time :) Sunday, 31th May 09 blog @ 0537hrs Friday, May 29, 2009 | 11:48 PM | Top
haiz...today nvr get enough slp and tiger called me early this morning,,,met him at abt 1pm++ for lunch and then he came to my house to play dota together again..hmm i dun really play dota already so haha practically tio own like fuck for the first round...but as for our second round, haha i use my favourite hero, Necrolyte :) own them like fuck...i got Ahgamin Sceptor with dagon lvl 5 haha dagon lvl 5 cost 800 damge to enemy haha!! regrettably i nvr up guinsoo and refresher orb...if not they can quit their game already...but manage to own them like one kind haha! COZ ONE OF THEIR TEAM SAID THAT I"M A FUCKING NOOB!!! CB zzz haha SONG BO TO THEM...anyway after 2 rounds of dota, tiger accompany me go back punggol for awhile to get things and go out again...went to ps the arcade near pc bunk there...wanted to play maximum tune but it was full...so went to play mahjong instead and few rounds of initial d haha! was having great fun with tiger around...kind of sharing the same idea in our life...well after then, i accompany him to paragon to fetch her gf aka my mummy haha! they left for home and i went to esplanade to slack...i was very lonely and emo...in fact is bouble emo-ness...there's 2 person in my head now and emo coz of 2 of them zzz took 36 to conventional centre and from there, walk to marina square...walk like zombie...dunno where to go so was practically walking around see see here and there LOL the funniest things was that i was thinking of singing K alone LOL fucking bo liaoz right??? got money but dunno where to spend...ai ya only 100 buck only la not much also...but its already enuff for myself to spend...well went to 7/11 and bought a drink...4got wads the name but its 10% voltage...why i buy that, coz iw as finding drinks that can make my high straight away and ya today before i went our, i swallow 2 tablets of flu pill...high like anything...think tml i'm gonna swallow 4 tablets...more kick! anyway no ppl care for me also haha! after i bought my drinks, went to esplanade there and slack alone...well i actually wanted to go and find budy de but she's busy with her work that nvr reply my sms so was practically sitting out there slack with by the river...well 10% volt is not for nth...after i finish 1 can, the kick straight away went into my head...but not drunk and the feeling is very nice haha! some more was listening to my "mp3"(my hp la) haha but not happy though...really damn fucking emo...was thinking if i can be myself more, things wont end up like this...anyway its already like that so i'm living my life the way i wanted...so its ok...kinda like emo-ing anyway...dun say me coz i find myself weird in anyways i put it...if there's a chance to fall in love and go steady again, i got to remember the things and wont do stupid things...dunno how to explain though but its kinda like that...i have been way too much that is why i end up like this...i asked for this...well if i got more $$ again, tml i will go and slack at esplanade again...this time round i'm going to buy more alcohol...take cab home and slp...then sunday is time to enjoy! woot :) going to sentosa hehe!! well i'm kinda living my life to the fulless now and i've always hope for the best...wish for the worst not to happen...she still have my blog link..hmm shall i relink my old blog back?? ahh~~~nah shall not even think about it anymore :) nights! gonna watch my show and wait for her to sms or call me :) well its like a happy anticipation! hehe the feeling of admiring ppl is much for happy but and also sad...I"M SO EMO~~~WAHAHAH!!! Saturday, 30th May 09 blog @ 0009hrs | 3:21 AM | Top
haha went to sentosa today:)again i drag myself out today...woke up at 12.30 and straight away go bathe and pack my back for the outing...went to have lunch and all and reach harbour front abt 3pm...then went to take cable car to sentosa yea! we bought the expensive one...all side glass so that can have a nice view...so nice~~~woot    just gonna upload a few pics...well its nice man! wooot! ai ya zzz forgot to take picture of the beach zzz anyway, we have fun playing water and swimming but i nvr swim coz i dunno how haha! dun LAUGH! by the way, we reach there abt 4pm and we play to abt 6pm and we leave for harbour front to eat kfc...after that went home and prepare for our night activities cb end up we got ps by elroy...so we decided to call joshua to sabai for some drinks...he brought a gal down name Linda...well today drank a lot again...in one shot zzz was playing 5-10 haha keep on losing to Guoz ARGH~~~! and before we start that game, i was practically drunking myself up already...haha...left sabai at abt 2am and went to eat supper with guoz at near levander/jalan besah area...reach home about 3am...yawn...tired sia...sentosa is sure a nice place to make a person slpy lolzz...btw this coming sunday i'm going to sentosa again haha this time is a gathering with Jos, ah di, wj, and kel :) haven seen them for some time already...already nights gonna wait for hui shi to call in le...blog tml bah bye~~ Friday, 29th May 09 blog @ 0408pm Thursday, May 28, 2009 | 4:46 AM | Top
went to bed straight after my last post...but dunno slp for how long and elroy called and tell me that they are meeting up already...he called me dunno how many time then pick up coz i was slping...wa lau damn shag ah!! drag myself out like this...was having a wonderful dream but haiz...anyway, meet elroy and took a cab to geylang to fetch his GF and went to sim lim to meet Guoz and his GF...went there to find thai keyboard but couldn't find one and so we decided to have our lunch there...haha our lunch is like feeding pig sia!! LOL Guoz ordered quite a lot of side dish haha...after lunch, we went to The Cathay cineplex to catch a move but end up all the timing cock up as their GF have to leave around 7-8pm...and so we was there shopping and playing some catching machine at the lan shop...Guoz bought a dress and erm some other things to his gf and elroy bought a bag for his gf...after that, we went downstairs to slack till about 7.30 like that they left and then we went to parklane to play lan...1.50/hr and we spent 11.50 there...and its already 3am haha! well its like they went to pick up their gf and i went home...reach home only playing guitar already haha! think i'm gonna master i'm your's by jason mraz first bah...the song that the boss gave us i think i'll practice it after i finish i'm your's :) i'm so happy that i got to play the first few chord correctly...its not easy lor haha my finger is in pain for days already and it seems like it will not recover lor haha can literaly see blue black already...haha but i'm still enjoying playing on it~~~ :) weeee tml my family will be back home around 5pm but i think i won't be at home coz i'm going to sentosa tml!! haha its been soo long for the last time been there after last 2 Xmas with my ex and her frens...haha i'm soo engross to this excitement already :p well lets hope that i wont get too much sun burning coz it is pain de lor haha! right i'm gonna continue with my guitar le haha whats the rush? haha coz if i can manage to play 1 song i might bring my guitar there tml yea! see ya tml~~~hmm gonna watch bleach later then go slp...nights Thursday, 28th May 09 blog @ 0502hrs Wednesday, May 27, 2009 | 11:47 AM | Top
...wake up not long ago...early hor...just now jana gave me a call but i nvr pick up coz i'm still in a deep slp haha call her back and erm...its like small ant talking to spider and i realise that i got NO VOICE!!! i still rmb yrs ago i lost my voice once also and haha i tried to speak but end up i speak like chipmunks LOL and now with no voice, feel like blogging...well i'm just angry that someone say that she herself is a bitch...haiz will she just stop branding herself already? i'm not gonna laugh at ur life...really...for wad i laugh at other ppls life while i'm laughing at mine? i dun wish to bestow unhappiness to other ppl...i thought that by being fren, eh can understand each other more coz i'm actually not like wad u think and u r not wad i actually thought...but i think that its like my unhappiness has given this aftermath result...its chaotic...oh man how can i clear this mess i've created? but plz stop assuming fact that is incorrect... i've been laughing at myself lately...why i dun have the gut to woo the gal i really like? keep making up excuses won't help but only deceiving...got to be more honest and sincere...i find something funny lor...fren who knew my for so many yrs...no one had said that i'm a hypocrite or something equivalent...well this is something new but i'm still me :) know wad i'm doing and its okay...thx to frens like Guoz and his colleague, had given me the courage to go on...frens like hui shi and elroy that needed help and i've given them, i just feel happy for them coz they are doing great now its just that elroy need time to do some self reflection and change his attitude a little...one day when he got no fren to go to at least i'm still there for him...i'm paying tribute to tiger; actually the most help i've ever given to is hui shi so call "my buddy" haha hey dun laugh la haha can hear it from here lol :)...well just hope that everything turns up to be good :) now that she's having a great job with loads of things to settle...good luck to u:) i'm anticipating the next meet up with u though haha! ops...anyway, later i'm going out with elroy(with his new gf) and guo(with his new gf too) to some steamboat activity haha today and tml will be fun!! yawnzzz think i'm going back to slp again...waiting for my parent to come back... Wednesday, 27th May 09 blog @ 1247hrs ps, com'on...the truth is there but my fren sided me...why? u dun have to know why coz u already knew why...just stop assuming things and dun think too much...no one is laughing but u r making ppl laugh at u...i dun tell ppl fake story and the fact is with me...ppl judge on the surface and now u r getting it so dun blame me...blame urself for saying urself...just stop that coz u r making ppl hating u...i've been doing the same thing for the past month and there u go :) angry? irritated? to make u angry is simple and to make u hate me is even more easy than 1 2 3...why am i doing this? i'm making u hating me for the past month so that u can totally forget about me...ah f it already...i'm tired blogging stupid things...u can say wadever thing about me just live ur life to the fulless...enjoy be4 its too late...bye fren | 4:25 AM | Top
lol wadever ah cant be bothered already...tonight went to V3 at boat quay and drank 3 jars of beer with joshua who is driving, taulfiq and elroy...especially me...i drank quite a lot coz joshua is driving and taulfiq nvr drink much which can see...elroy cant drink much too and guoz is haha okok drank with him quite a lot though...why i drink so much today?? coz i'm sooo happy and sad...after V3, went to 99 with elroy and guoz only...sad lose to elroy when playing pool...coz i was damn drunk already...cant see the ball clearly...was waiting for a sms that i will nvr receive....think she's slping already bah hmm well today be4 night event, was with her for the whole day again...came to my house at about 7am and bought me breakfast!! well be4 that, she msg me that she's still down stairs and ask me to meet her end up got scare by her near my house de lift lobby... haha we diden't even got to slp...she was using my comp and watch a snooker show last episode together...after that she was watching other show and i fall aslp for an hour or so...went out abt 1pm for her interview:) and she got a job at one fullerton :) ... if she's my gf, i would had waited for her everyday be4 she knock off and that is about 3am bah...well i'm gonna slp now...just bathe and vomited quite a lot...head feel giddy already...guess morning i'm going to have a hang over...hope not... Wednesday, 27th May 09 blog @ 0501hrs Tuesday, May 26, 2009 | 12:58 AM | Top
ops...i stalk her out and success haha...well i just hope that she dun mistook for my intention...anyway yesterday haiz...jeff disappoint us all...say until so steady that time erm want to open 1 martell to celebrate his birthday but end up say no money...then elroy like not steady also...dun wanna go out like that...end up is Guo, joshua(Lancer club member), taulfiq and me we went to 99 a thai disco situated at tangong pagar...went there to slack again...we ordered 2 buckets of heineken haha drink until siao...i was practically stuck at the pool challenger table...i was drunk so nvr played properly but i went to toilet and wash face and wanted a revenge but they say that they are going off already so hmm till next time bah...sad...ya went back to punggol yesterday night coz i thought meeting hui shi zzz end up she fall aslp...well today the whole afternoon is like so boring la watch Okto show call erm Thomas and his frens?? lol the train cartoon show lai de lol...bo liaoz right?? haha after that went to have my lunch...then when coming evening, i dun wanna stay at punggol till too late for a reason...so msg hui shi whether wanted to go lan shop to play hero online or not...waited for her to confirm is like the sky will drop like that so i decided to wait for her at her house downstairs...for about an hour or so la...was listening to my last song and wanted to leave then she call and confirm that she's going...but just i can keep my hp into my pocket, she call me again haha this time she's in a very kan chiong tone!! LOL dunno wad happen la she just ask me faster go up to her house...and then there i am at here house just to find out that her toilet the pipe is burst LOL told her to switch off the valve...i offer my help and guess wad? i'm all drench haha~~~both laughing LOL dry up and off we go...played for 2hours...went to slack awhile and off we go...to home...tml i'm gonna be real tired coz morning going to meet hui shi to fullerton there to interview...there's a pub there mah plus the pay quite good... $1.6k :) after that hmm maybe stick around town or wad then at night, i'm going to meet elroy and Guoz to drink again hmm maybe shenton way bah or tangong pagar then the the day after tml, going out to eat steamboat zzz practically i know wads the plan already lor haha but ok la i kept myself busy out if not...i'm gonna die from boredom! :( ...i'm just sad that hui shi cant join us on our steamboat outing...well i can be alone for just sad thats all...hmm actually i've think it through...cant wait for her 4ever so i choose to pass her by...i got to move on...its either let go earlier before i go deeper and deeper or just trap myself in a love triangle that the love that will nvr happens... A scattered dream, that's like a far-off memory... A far-off memory, that's like a scattered dream... I want to line the pieces up... yours and mine... this few lines are just for fun...hmm i'm wondering wad will i be after another 2yrs...i can only dream...she the only one proven that wad i've done is just all wrong...so when then i can make things right from wrong i wonder...well thats all for my emo-ness here again zzz gonna do something happy later haha bathe and . . . . play my guitar la haha!Tuesday, 26th May 09 ( WOW 26th already ah???!!! damn) blog @ 0213 Sunday, May 24, 2009 | 5:43 PM | Top
yesterday was quite a happy day...tiger came to my house and play dota together haha! and ya we went to lunch and dinner also...around 8pm, he went off...and so i went to msn....guoz nudge me saying wanna go slack at some pubs but no one accompany him...so i ask him whether i can join him haha this is how i end up at Tanjong Pagar club 99 with him...went there to have beer this time...1 jar but 1 bucket(5bottles of heineken)of heineken...drink till about 2.30am i think and we went home...i think is i used to hard liquor...beer de kick come faster than hard liquor lol end up very very drunk plus some more Gouz cant drink much coz he's driving...so i was pratically drunking myself...but still ok la...went home...bathe and slp.... well....tonight is Jeff's birthday...later gonna meet them at Guoz work place then plan where to go...haiz playing my guitar while looking at something i shuden look...miss her so much but she doesn't know...haiz anyway she dun have to know...she has her life u know? haha i always thought that i can share all the good things with her but haiz...i couldn't be special coz i'm just me...anyway no one ever understand me...she say how i treat her...thats why she betrayed me...so thats mean the pass year is all shit? seriously i dun want to continue writing this shit coz she will only assume this and that...wadever la...cant face me? that week badminton i then really see ur true color...this is why i cant forgive myself from hiding my feelings...need some where to express it out if not...really i cannot take it...i only owe my life to my family...so even if i die someday, u dun have to feel guilty or threatening ur life...plz dun give me this kind of crap...i know that these 2 yrs, i nvr gaven u a nice birthday celebration...right then u can say that i played u ok...dunno why ppl say that to find another relationship is tiring...why? coz have to know him/her all over again...but for her its like wow...just a few days...clap clap...coz i bang my head? coz of money issue? coz i cant find a job due to i'm going ns soon? coz of my fucking attitude? coz ur parent dun like me? ya i know life isn't fair to everyone...i'm just waiting after 2yrs in ns only... Sunday, 24th May 09 blog @ 1812hrs Saturday, May 23, 2009 | 6:20 AM | Top
lol i just realise its already 6.20am in the morning! yawn!! haha ya today went to buy guitar and i'm frenly enuff to have a good chat with the boss there...and he taught me some tricks and short cuts for playing a guitar hmm beat me...he says that i can play in 3days time coz he claim that its rare to see beginner strum nice sound for the first time... :)...well went home after dining with elroy...he wanted to buy an electric guitar but got an acoustic one instead...well this is my guitar!   well...i actually went for the color but not the design...  well after an hour of playing i have realise that my fingers are starting to feel pain from pressing onto the strings and imagine i've been practicing on it for hours till now lol but feel good and happy :)...ITS NOT EASY!!! having hard time trying to understand guitar online...and ya haha the boss is frenly enuff to not only teach us but also gave us a copy of a song and note hand written on it so that we can have something to learn and play with...so if i succeed that song in 3days, haha think its not a problem to pick up...anyway to learn this take time and patience...and haha ya wake up to find out that my hair was in a mess zzz funny though...  LOL FUNNY??? zzzz i'm gonna slp now...damn shag...SHAGNESS!!! lolSaturday, 23rd May 09 blog @ 0652hrs Friday, May 22, 2009 | 5:17 AM | Top
well...hmm had be away coz i'm not at home erm i mean Bendemeer...had been at punggol area this few days away...been to lan shop with hui shi playing hero LOL we tiao there playing hero online for 7hours haha some more we still can go down eat supper and then go up and play again haha! i think if she ever come in here and read my blog will also laugh haha! yea buddy! haha and ya went to 72 and sabai sabai this week also...drink a lot drink less ah wadever...just go there and relax only...haiz i've thought about it...i'm abandoning my little wish...for the good! yea dun ask me why...ahh practically today whole day accompany hui shi to interview...from Whampoa to Tampines haha! abt 9pm ++, she ah hai yo want to go and see 72 and sabai sabai so hmm after asking here and there, she's been approved and went down with me haha her plan was not to go in...as in after her dinner, she will take cab home...but end up haha went in and drink with us...today damn tired la...after 2 half bottle of martell at 72, we went over to sabai sabai and had another bottle of martell but we only manage to finish one third of it if i'm not wrong haha...around 4pm, we left the place...Guoz gave hui shi(baby)(buddy) a ride home and then elroy and i went to levender there for supper and then home we off to...gonna k'o soon...k le la...going to bathe now and then slp le...tml still meeting elroy to buy Guitar! yeaH! haha bye~~ Friday, 22nd May 09 blog @ 0530hrs Tuesday, May 19, 2009 | 4:21 AM | Top
...just to find out why my scroll seems to be soo tiny and when i scroll all the way down...here i go again this time for me the fade away zzz...song from E-type zzz anyway i'm suprised...but well its all memories of her...especially my last first post...our first anniversary lol...i shuden had scroll all the way down i guess...if u ask me wad to choose, memories vs facts...i really dunno...but i do know that is memory is for me to think back...the fact is that i'm living in this very reality world...no matter wad my memory will be...its been always carved inside my heart and will nvr change until the day i die and the same goes to each and everyone of u here i guess...well for ppl for them to say that they've seen my true colors hmm i just got to say that i've become wad i cant be...as for now i'm like this...well life change coz of something and its not like i can change into different person in just a second...and thinking abt putting words into my mouth...it really hurt a lot...but well ppl hurts cost my me also hmm so i dun ask for much...so i wont bewitch and bestow pain to other again anymore...i wis and hope that the pain i've once cost, can be gone...maybe not now but slowly...ppl take time to change...well all i got to say is that wad i have said here is all true...and ya :) haha i nvr drink drive LOL!! | 3:51 AM | Top
haha tonight again went to drink at 72 :) and we went to club sabai sabai also haha! but end up at 72 drink till like 1:40am like that...dunno why today when i drink till certain limit, feel like want to vomit hmm maybe too hungry so i decided to go for supper...but after i eat, felt regret abt it...haiz anyway went home and play a round of dota...after i blog finish, i'm going to bathe haha! yea today chat with cindy for awhile...erm not the AP(atittude problem) cindy i'm talking abt...its the guoz's cindy...used to like her in ite but nvr dare to tell her also haha she's now in poly and is really very busy there...but hope that she is free this friday so i can date her out :) maybe to sing k! yea haha we used to go sing k often but we hardly contact each other after we went to ite second year...well i still haven got the guitar yet but it seems like everyday i'm thinking abt guitar haha! maybe tml after i go for a little mission then i will be heading straight to parklane and get the guitar! YEA! way to go :) well i also got to chat a little with xingyi...she's now doing second year in some university...in business management hmm its hectic i shud say but it sure pays off if u really did a good job in there and get good grade and when u graduate, if there's good company wants u, wow good pay too! coz she has the skill too eh i belive~~ haha sorry for mocking u a little haha! nah u r great! right...i hope everything is fine :) i'll set everything in motion once after my ns is over! cant waiT CANT WAIT!!!~~~~~~~~ Tuesday, 19th May 09 blog @ 0402hrs Monday, May 18, 2009 | 4:22 AM | Top
wa lau...i really dun care who's gonna look at my blog now...i could had leave things as it is but i did not...i'm i chaos again i shud say...actually i'm slping already but hui shi called me regarding the pub job hmm think maybe she will be working at bout quay le bah...anyway today went out with my family to Vivo city...today is damn tired for me can wa lau ytd went to drink till 3am and i 4am then slp 10am wake up from my mum's call then from there all the way to just now 9pm +...waiting for hui shi to reply till i fall aslp then she call hmm now i'm awake waiting for the sky to rain only...cant slp now coz i'm thinking someone now...haiz all this while its been her but now i'm all alone...haiz guoz say he's gonna save money but today again asking me whether wanna join them at 72 lol! wanted to join them but just too tired...i just need a good rest...well see day by day to pass is like 1 step closer to somewhere i dunno...what will i be doing tml? where will i go tml? will she contact me tml? will she forgive me tml? will i be better tml? i dunno...2yre...just give me another 2yrs...i want to see it through with my own eyes...just thinking abt ppl who can stay in jail 4ever...army is nothing compare to that...and hope can faster finish my NS life and put my "future plans" into motion...cant wait already...work and study and to get my license so that i can have car to drive...3 to 4 yrs starting from the day i go army...another 4 to 5 yrs, i'm going to be a successful man...yea way to go! haiz junwei, since when did u stop explaining urself? coz u dunno? plz dun say dunno :( Monday, 18th May 09 blog @ 0527hrs Sunday, May 17, 2009 | 11:48 AM | Top
haha yesterday went to 72 drink one jar of beer...was waiting for Guoz's fren there...when they reached, we went over to club Sabai Sabai just beside only...well hmm it seems so much fun there coz our table here is all Singaporea and there's no thai lady walk here and there...nvr really drink much yesterday....the only most kick i drank is the sisters there hmm abt 6 of them, pour some shots of martell and jio me drink together with them...i thought after that shots, i will faint but i didn't! haha i felt no kick at all! of coz la i drink non stop for a month already...well for some ppl i dunno wad and why are they running away from me for...hmm i eat them? nah...but well i feel much more better this way bah...but dunno why i feel like no matter where this person go, i will sure to find her somewhere hmm i also think that its better this way...well be it good or bad, better or worst, hope that this turn out to be just fine...been having weird dreams lately but luckily it nvr continue...i will go crazy if it does...i had a mission tml and if succeed, i will have lots of money! yea! but the consequences are fatal but i've got nth to lose! haha i dun give a damn already :) ...i'm going to have my second music instrument other then my primary school recoder, its a guitar! haha! i'm just sad that i cant share this joy with my love one hmm FINDING!!! haha nah not now other my little wish here there will be no other ppl...just hope if i really bought that guitar, it's still ok after 2yrs...well this is just a little nonsense i thought of lately...well i still love her but to really love her, i have to start from scratch again...and to do that, i've got to change myself for the better...i knew that would happen someday not only u...coz of my negligence this happens to us...and coz of my stubborness and self centered me, it turn from average become worst...well this is just a little nonsense i have thought of...coz of this nonsensical thought, i'm just creating trouble amoung ppl...why i write this here? i find myself angry for nth these days and i just found my answer and coz i keep forgetting things already...maybe i'll soon forget everyone...hope its a nonsense too...well going back to slp le...blog soon. Sunday, 17th May 09 blog @ 1217hrs Saturday, May 16, 2009 | 8:01 PM | Top
i've been a jerk for 1 month and i had it haha! still have the feeling though but i know its over now...i'm ok already so hmm...ya yesterday met tiger for the whole day...went to parklane play pool, arcade and lanshop...around 7pm, we walk to The Cathay and slack there on the steps outside while drinking starbuck coffee :) my favourite hehe tiger was playing his laptop while i erm...company him bah haha but he is the one who accompanied me the whole day playing haha! well sitting there listening songs and looking around...until 9pm, his gf reach and we decided to take mrt back home and i also decided to go to his gf house there to slack with tiger :) we was drinking while playing chinese chess! haha after some round we decided to have some chat haha...we talk a lot la as usual...we cant talk on phone de so when we were together face to face, usually we would slack till wee hours! drank 2 bottle of Tiger haha! and 1 bottle of Cider...8.4% is like zzz reach home around 5am+++ the first thing i did was VOMIT!! AHHH haha....lol i'm going to drink tonight again at 72...hmm ck will be here at my place lol right blog again bye~~ Saturday, 16th May 09 blog @ 2030hrs Friday, May 15, 2009 | 2:04 PM | Top
yesterday went to 72 drink again...drank a lot but no kick at all just having headache and a bit gastric...this few days taste bud taste things so weird haiz kinda feel like my kidney is having hard tie coping my new life style...went home slack awhile and slp...had weird dreams again omg zzz...anyway today tiger wake me up...calling me haha met him at bendemeer...going out later yea! i'm going to shop today! i feel so happy today dunno why...blog soon BRB!! Friday, 15th 09 blog @ 1410hrs Thursday, May 14, 2009 | 11:47 AM | Top
well hui shi is right abt it but i nvr get to realise it until ytd but lucky nth happen to me so far ever since the first day i touch alcohol...when u drink while not in a good mood and until certain limit will feel fustrated and really feel like punching ppl...belive it or not...and for gals will cry till like there's no tml while asking why here why there...ytd went to 72ng like i said in my msn ytd "gonna torture myself again tonight" haha coz i'm sick and still going to drink! wa kick...scared ppl from MOH drag me to hospital for a quarantine coz i'm having slight flu and heavy cough...well we open 3 bottle martell and there was little ppl there...part of the lancer club member and 3 of our fren...its like this; jeff, guoz and i + lancer club which left early and the 3 is shawn and erm forget their name liaoz...lol erm for the lancer club they are real time street racer in Singapore...gonna see them on the road 3-4yrs later bah...why we were there ytd? coz ytd is like the "main" opening...and damn lots of ppl than usual...haha Dj davien is lonely yesterday! entertaint him a little by drinking with him coz he know me and came to our table for some drink la...and of coz there's thai gals there too but i only talk to them when i wan to...coz the main reason for me is to relax...unless i'm rich haha can buy them drinks and flower...as time goes by, one and a three quarter of martel is gone...and we were all walking like drunkard hmm i think is me bah haha i drank quite a lot...haiz why me??? plus...i''m SICK!! sian...oh ya really! ...LOL and today, i had weird dream again...but i hope this is not wad i sense... Thursday, 14th May 09 blog @ 1321hrs Wednesday, May 13, 2009 | 3:25 PM | Top
haha dun think i'm going to mia anymore! i'm gonna blog while i can... well this monday went to pubs and drink again even i'm sick haha... feeling like i'm fading... its ok man... i wanna see where is my limit, can i still go on? yea i can! i still wan to drink! i'm now an emo drinker... later going to 72 and drink again... but this time plz no gal for me!!! after my last experience with that thai gal, had been so scared of them... why? coz they are irritating! ah i nvr did la hor... i just wan a normal local gal who i can love with... now that hui shi's bf is back somehow i feel safe and sound but still a bit uneasy... although still asking myself questions but it seems like all is over... well i still have my little wish here hehe... she still call me time to time when she's facing problems or whenever she's lonely :) as u all know that i'm wokring for agent as sales co-ordinator, today nearly close a deal!!! ARHG!! they couldn't contact the owner wa lau...damn sian... anyway i will work hard! haha haiz still having cough and flu but not swine flu la zzz having a slight fever... think tonight i'm gonna bring my jacket if not i dun really know how can i survive there... its so cold down there!! hmm gonna update my blog again... Wednesday, 13th May 09 blog @ 1542hrs Sunday, May 10, 2009 | 5:33 PM | Top
this is my 100th post and my last post...haha then that mean u understands me la? and wad in the hell u care that i pray for someone? well if u wan i will stop today then...u betrayed me and thats the fact and plz dun say anything thats not true...and if by having faith, i cant go anywhere i want izzit be coz its a sin? i still have a life to enjoy and for wad u care? as a fren? lol u said we be fren but i think u r just making be a spare tire LOL thats a real joke...u wan to know why? after all we had been through and u tell me that...alright then...if u think that i dun understand u nvm...seriously..i was thinking that the moment ur parent dun like me, we shud had broken off already why wait till now? its my mistake... really...viewing ur blog makes me want to laugh...no offence though...u keep thinking abt the things that u cant do and u dun even try seriously...u will regret it for the rest of ur life...yes i know u cant thats why u r stuck...u r too young to find a bf unless ur current bf its 25-27 yrs old...belive it or not if u think that in a relationship is all abt love...so wads the love that i've gaven u? izzit nth? u cant wait for me to change and be coz of that, u give up on me half way through...yes i know u r a family gal...well the issue is that i met ur parent too soon...u cant keep things from parent and are stuck in the middle...u left the person who love u most and go for other...u cant wait for him to change and u left just like that...well u aren't special nor fate...u make this choice for ur own good and i can understand...i diden choose u for who u r or wad u r...i choose u coz we all r made for being loved...the keys is returned and the door is closed forever...and ya dun tell me that i dun have the right to emo LOL haha this few days had been busy going around singapore haha from east to south and to erm north lol went east coast for my fren's chalet...and F! was too busy chatting with Mylene till i lost my cigarette and also be coz i haven been slping for 48hrs LOL well she's a funny gal i shud say haha fun to play with i think...zzz it reminds me of Ly haha anyway she is la...went to bout quay ytd for my 15yrs fren/bro's gf birthday celebration...drink a lot yesterday...overall bill 800SGD +++ lol...and i saw someone i shuden had zzz 4get it...well had been at seng kang and puggol area for a reason...just for that special someone i guess...this morning she went to msia le...i really feel happy and sad for this time being around with her...the most happiest day was on Friday, 8th of May :) really very happy...dunno how to explain this happiness...well that morning went to her work place to help her get her pay but her boss is such a bitches...without any slp, went there and get nth zzz but i'm happy though...doing something for the ppl u erm love, is happy~! haiz anyway after i get nth, i decided to leave...sembawang...she called me as usual and had a long chat as usual...she told me that she very hungry and wan to eat so i told her that i ta bao for her and she said ok! haha normally she would say things like nvm la...so the moment when she say ok i was like haha! okok...but end up we meet up for lunch and that make me for happy! wahaha! we had lunch at rivervale mall de long john and we keep chatting haha she also say wanna come my house use my comp coz her house de internet connection had been cut off due to rolling of bills...but end up she nvr come my hosue also coz we were slacking somewhere near her house talking for 2hrs ++ hahA! went to her house and watch Marley and mE together...but end up she fall aslp and i nearly fall aslp coz we had been up for 48hrs lol! just by looking at her...slping "beside" me...haiz the women u love is loving someone else...happy and sad...i was planning something like tell her that i love her while she's slping and then go home then suddenly she wake up...and told me that she nvr really slp...just closing her eye but i hear her snoring leh haha...ah anyway luckily i nvr did wad i planned if not, i really dunno how to clear this mess...i hope she will enjoy her food without vomiting...she had been vomiting food right after a meal...haiz some how i got affected by her...ytd she still can tell me she's eating haha! think its good that i "gave" her somthing and i got something from her as well...coz i lost my appetite of of a sudden and will freaking feel like vomit things out...maybe i drink too much...i had a small wish here...hope that she can be mine one day...just one call and i'll be there thats my promise to her in my heart...she can be the only one but no body else... well am i self centered? nah just being selfish...i got to be selfish to get something...i thought that this philosophy of mine had been sealed by her but it seems like she's the one using it on me and i really had nth to say...i will nvr ask for a patch and patch back if i dun love u...u can keep on thinking that its all my fault and is pushing all the blame but had u really put urself into my shoes? this is everything u wanted but not me...u can get angry coz i dun go as wad u planned so that doesn't mean that i'm not like that...u claim that ur ideal is to give ur bf this and that...but i dun think so...but also that doesn't mean its totally ur fault that i claim...so dun think that i'm pushing all the blames...the one who said break meaning that this person's heart is not here anymore so no meaning askhing her back...and com'on...god wont help a Judas...belive it or not...wad i wan to hear is from u but not god...if u put all ur faith in god, u r a goner already...well i cant say that i'm fully an anti christ...its just that wad u belive...have faith in urself...if u lost faith in ur self or someone else, really...all will be gone in an instant and that change a person's heart as well...although i say that i see signs this and that...i'm just only saying it but its up to ppl's hardwork to see it through...well i'm finally out of the "Difficult Situation" for almost 2yrs...but oh well i'm happy to know u...to be fren now and maybe come back to me in the future? dun make me laugh...if u cant even understand wad i said, u have no right to say me thank u and "god bless"...u sure know how to hate ppl :) hate me for the rest of ur life lor Sunday, 10th May 2009 blog @ 2020hrs | 6:33 AM | Top
well i'm going to "mia" for awhile...tired of blogging this while plus my blog seems so emo when ever i blog a new post zzz really tired... end on Sunday, 10th of May 2009 blog @ 0636hrs ~~~signing off~~~ add me plz masterwei@hotmail.com ... 12th April 2007 evening... Thursday, May 7, 2009 | 4:53 AM | Top
well well well! saw something very interesting! shall share with u guys here; Sagittarius (Nov 22 - Dec 21) The Bottom Line; When it comes to flirting, you cannot afford to be shy today -- life is too short! In Detail; When it comes to flirting, you cannot afford to be shy today -- life is too short for you to hem and haw and worry about being too aggressive! If you don't step up and let someone know you're interested, another person could beat you to the punch. Preserving a false front is a waste of your energy -- so fess up when you feel special feelings toward someone. It's the only way you're ever going to find out if they have special feelings for you too. hmm well...i'm going crazy...is this a sign?? is this going to be a push for me? how how how? nvr try how i know...but i do know that this is not the time yet...so i think i will still wait for the right time :) well erm hope the others sagittarians are doing just fine :) SPREAD UR LOVE!!! | 4:26 AM | Top
well for tonight its party time again! haha we were discussing abt where to go and came up with a few places like OO(double O), St'James powerhouse, 65 which is at Tanjong Paga area and 72NG...decided to go 72NG again lol...well before that, earlier on morning, slept for only 2hours or less...got a call from hui shi and she was crying very jia lat...ask her whether izzit her bf mistreat her this time but its not...her tummy is in great pain haiz told her lots of time not to eat and go vomit and there she goes...worry for her very much...today i was sooo happy:) around 1pm reach her house company her...well we chat a lot abt our past and present but its more like talking abt our life last time and how we used to be...happy :)...she shared and showed me a lot of her photo...i realise that she has been she's been looking at me all the time but be coz i dun dare to take initiative its like i let go all the chances i have...this is only my assumption but hope its true...when ever i thought that i can forget someone...the person close to me will go away...and going back to my original routine...but for me now right, its really a painful and tormenting time...just a month only...junwei! dun give up! u can do it! i need time now...anyway, we chat all day long till like around 6pm went meet my cousins at abt 7pm...reach there early though so i went out side compass point and slack awhile...smoking and listening to my songs...like i always do...went to Soup Restaurant and had out early celebration for Mother's day :) after dining, we went to walk around...then i decided to leave coz i'm meeting my frens and its going to be very late...met jeff at potong pasir mrt and went to meet the rest of my gang at kallang bahru :)...well we find a table at the nearby kopitiam and had a drink there...and saw some small kid gangster there lol...to me, they are small kid coz i come a long way u know and its my past...no point telling...and ya this is where we discuss where to go and ended up at Shenton Way 72NG again haha...well i thought today i can get my peace there but that thai gal nub just bug onto me...haiz nvm i'll just play my part to make her happy too but its more like i'm down there emoing than entertaining her...see her face...boring...feel like slapping the hell out of her and tell her to WAKE UP LA...she kept lying on my shoulder wa lau its like my shoulder is for u like that...PUi! anyway i let her coz i'm there to enjoy so actually end up hugging her but this time no kiss...really no mood to play with her...i told her that if u got any customer, just go ahead...well she just stick to me...its already like i'm a bf liaoz...she still ask me whether i'm hungry all that and if i'm hungry, she claim that she will cook for me LOL wad a preveilege! but haiz...i still prefer my gf cook for me...so anyway i told her that i'm full...haha well dun wanna say things abt wad i did in 72 le coz its just another repeat story...i got tired of "our" tent and so i msg and ask Ly whether she wan the tent or not coz i think abt it ah her new bf is like out going and so i decided not to keep it but actually to hand over it to her so that she can enjoy while at east coast playing or wadsoever la...dun care anymore...just live a happy life and enjoy while u can...open ur eyes and dun get cheat my guys...haiz dunno why still dun trust any guys out there for her...well its her decision now so ... i just tell myself that i shuden care anymore and if i does, i'll feel more pain...still cant belive the face that she's gone and changed into another person so fast...well for a pro compare to a noob like me...love make a person grow...just hope that the wait for hui shi is worth it...can say that we are much much more closer now...but seeing her happy, its like there's not tml already... haha though i blog abt wad i'm doing now...the fact is that in my eyes now, there's only one gal...to play is another thing coz i'm now enjoying...talking abt Ly here its like a taboo...coz i still feel like i'm a loser in relationship...so yea this is my theory...so if u are saying that i'm flirting now? haha to play outside and to admire the one i like in fact the one i love now between the one i lose a month ago its like a cycle to me and for most of the guys...really coming out to play it will change u a lot but to wad kind of different? that depend on individual...for me, i still know wad am i doing and wont go beyond that line...but contrary i can go beyond that line if i wanted to...well this is not like dunno wad i wan...in fact its like i'm doing wad i wanted thats all...think abt the bad be4 u think abt the good...but i dunno when will i make mistake so i'll use my eyes to see...i'm having a new job again! tml going to interview so much thx to hui shi coz her sister in law is like half a boss and is doing something erm which i dunno...tml go interview then i'll know :) i know him a little so there's no worry abt anything i'll just keep up my good work and this work seems to be promising :p hope i really like it...i wont let any chance slipts away anymore...sick and tired abt it already...do wad i can do before i regret :) and well i've got to do wads best for me right? my philosohy is that some time, for ur own wadsoever reason, u have to be selfish and it really hit it right into my face...so i have to be more evil from now on IF i have to :) Thursday, 7th May 2009 blog @ 0434hrs Wednesday, May 6, 2009 | 5:29 AM | Top
 well i've this nice galaxy aka milky way wanna share with u guys and hope u like it... just looking at this, it really clear my mind... had been thinking... i've become wad i cant be already... just like the song by One Republic - STop and Stare... hehe still can rmb wad i did when Ly and i was listening to this song but thats the past:) anyway hope u guys like this pic... and plz bare in mind that global warming is reaching its limit! think abt wad can we do to help this planet instead of abusing it... stop being selfish! think abt the earth before u decide on something that will cost ur future:) | 4:58 AM | Top
well... i'm hesitating whether or not to blog today but guess i cant stop my finger from doing this haha coz i'm kinda shag now... today wake up quite early and luckily i nvr get hang over but my throat is sore zzz dried up and dehydrated... keep drinking water and feel like vomit but i manage to pull through... haiz today that thai gal nub spam call me... i just dun wanna pick up coz no matter how i play, i dun wan to bring it back into my life... when i'm there, she will then see me if not, i'm like a vip to u... i dun wan... anyway it doesn't matter... :) today i find hui shi and my buddy relationship just raise to another level already :) can kinda feel it... hmm just where i'm missing?? a few steps? shit! its like the person is just there u know and still cant grasp wad she's really thinking zzz no confident? nah i shud say i cant comfirm anything yet but can feel it la!! how how how?? anyway... my house spare keys is now with ck... still thinking how to deal with it!!! OMG!!! she just called me AGAIN!! hehe! so happy :) 5am+++ liaoz she still cant slp haiz worry for her... haiz dunno why in my whole entire life, i find myself for being a secret admirer is much more happier... hmm maybe the feeling for Ly is just only a crush bah... :) but there's feeling that is undeniable... well be it sweet or bitter, i'm already very content but am i ready to move on?? i don't know... :( well i still have luandry to do and haven bathe yet coz i just reach home from my fren's house... plus this hectic rain... but i like it! haha Wednesday, 6th May 2009 blog @ 0521hrs Tuesday, May 5, 2009 | 12:16 PM | Top
wow... yesterday waS hellish for me... wanted to catch a movie yesterday night but left a few shows as its not weekend so dun have any midnight show... and so we decided to go 72NG again... this time is Guoz, roy, billy and me... went to smoke near taxi area haha u know cineleisure have has music playing? my leg and body just cant stop moving to the beat haha! anyway after we smoke, flag a cab there and go 72... went there for i think 3hours... we finish 1 bottle of half filled martel and a bottle of chivas... this is crazy coz we just keep drinking and drinking... Guoz was the man that night! haha ON THE ROCK FOR HIM MAN! ah my throat still sore argh~~ anyway starting was haha of coz get ourselves the drink first and settle down... then the gal there will just keep coming :) and drink la fuck! dun anyhow think lol... they have only 1 mission... not to let u fuck them but let them fuck u coz they will fuck ur wallet upside down LOL if u bring enuff cash for that day hmm sure is vice-versa... well for me... i spent 40 buck ytd haha 4 terquila shots... 2 for my gal and 2 for the singer there... and really omg... ytd guoz dare that gal to kiss me man! ah and i kiss her back yea! haha it was fun though... her body is good :) so i was pratically hand on her waist when i'm sitting there but i wasn't stick to my chair... i kept going toilet and slacking near toilet area... was crying... dunno why... then and ya i just knew the dj there his name is daven? davien? ah i 4got! anyway he came to me as he's going toilet he saw me mah and console me... ask me wad happen... and i told him that my gf and i just broken up... and he was like AH! fuck the gals man there's plenty out there! haha and asking me later wanna dedicate songs for me and i told him that will let him know :) "take care!" and there he goes and i went in after i finish my cigarette... well coz i keep taking my time and it seems like my gal could not wait for me this time haha just go ahead man! i'm not a worthy customer haha! just go away... coz i'm there to play! and ya was asking billy and roy whether they have any songs in mind that wanna dedicate... and they decided on Poker Face and so i went over to the dj and treated him a drink and tell him that we wanted that song and so he played it... ahh anyway its about 3am and we decided to leave but guoz he just dun spare my life man... i drank half fill cup of chivas and there goes our chivas for the day... end up walking like a snake... as for nub(the one who is with me drinking thai gal) haha she wasn't spare too! haha we got the money to open another hard liquor its just that we dun wanna spend our money here le coz its freaking expensive to enjoy here... anyway nub was walk like a snake too! haha well and had a good bye from here haha! and there we go... took a cab and off to home but i vomit half way through levendar... and this time the way i vomit its like my stomach is gonna throw out that kinda feeling... went to kallang bahru 7\11 and bought the pepps... but still vomiting... after that we went to nearby market to eat supper... i told them that i dun have the appettite and so i was sitting and the car park there and continue my buffet...as a "chef"... hmm it reminds me that there's one day i was walking Ly home and saw this ang mo couple... her boy was like drunk till fall onto the ground straight after the alighted from the cab and his gf was having a hard time pulling him up and decided to pour water at him... lol was pratically doing the same thing to myself except water... after they finish eating, of coz its home time... and i found myself crawling back home lol! i told billy to go home first... i can make it coz elroy is still with me that time... the elroy keep saying that its gonna rain soon if we dun get home any sooner but i just couldn't control my body at all! haha miss this feeling though but its self torturing LOL ever since my 18yrs old celebration at K Garden... wow that was far more worst than wad i've been through ytd... that time i rmb i drank flamming lamborgini and vomit like FUCK! need 3 escort... my feet cant even feel the floor... anyway ytd i still manage to get home...and it was already 5am++ after i bathe went to bed straight... worring that i might get hang over i tried not to think too much and i fell aslp... and the feeling is the best though i miss the service the a gf can give like putting a tower on my fore head and talk to me, resting on her thigh and slowly fall aslp... well woke up @ 12noon... well this wednesday still planning on going St'James powerhouse... haiz miss the way she call my full name in stead of buddy but its enuff already... it seems like we will be like how it used to be... she will slowly move away from me soon... shud i start my move? haiz and ya Ly return my keys through ck... without her, the keys are meaningless coz no one can replace her... really irreplacable... really in pain... ytd when i was in the train, i was sitting at the head of the train and when it's reaching serangoon and i cry there again... why why why!?? i thought that i can finally stop crying and yet i'm still zzz well like hui shi said...everything will pass... hmm i shud say that everything will become my past and become memory for me but when?? wad if i'm still like that in my army life and wad if i still cant get over it after 2yrs in army?? i will be the one living behind our shadow... Tuesday, 5th May 2009 blog @ 1322hrs Sunday, May 3, 2009 | 2:11 AM | Top
tonight damn lonely... but my wish finally came true today :) it happen minutes ago haha and i'm very happy :) well... had been watching show all day long... just get a bit hang over from wads left over last night... and by the way abt my new posting... i'm doing some side job for one of my fren... earning little by little... tml tiger is coming over to my house... we are past life gay partner continue LOL... rubbish la haha nah we are very good fren just miss him very much... well junwei, dun get too selfish coz things might happen lol haiz sad dunno just how long this rain will last... how abt forever? hmm thats end of singapore already if it really rain for ever... be it rain, had been standing new window to see that spectacular lightning strike and thunder... how i wish i had a video cam with me to record it down but anyway memory is meant for u to dream and to keep it in ur heart...like tonight, its raining heavily now... tml news might report that its a new height in rain measurement this past month... weeks later u heard nth from it anymore and just hope that it rain again... for wad reason? any! haha right gonna go watch show le... haiz she's not back yet... hope she's fine and ok... god bless Sunday, 3rd May 2009 blog @ 0223hrs Saturday, May 2, 2009 | 3:45 PM | Top
hey frens and ppl here! all the netizens here! i'm taking in iphone. repair or if u wanna sell, can get me @84037188 just tell him that u know junwei can le:) | 5:44 AM | Top
tonight's title is:"I WENT OVER BOARD!!" lol wadever who care? haha met elroy and guoz at around 6pm... went to orchard tower to get guoz pay... after that we went to a nearby burger king for dinner and then we went to shaw tower lido to catch a movie... we watch Friday the 13th haha! staring...Jason, the ultimate killing machine LOL ah this show prove that thriller movie is much more better story set than horror film :) it was 11pm ++ and we went to 72 NG thai disco pub again haha! today was HAHA!!! really enjoy myself there... why & how? drink liquor as usual and this time round, i'm with a thai gal! wahaha her name is nub lol NOOB??? zzz she's 25 this yr and is working there for extra cash for her study... she came here coz of her sch holiday to work... wow this time round i got to hug her all that but nvr kiss LOL OMG WHY AM I SAYING THIS HERE WAHAHA zzz idiot coz i find out that i can be this wild if i wanted to and i'm happy:) i threw 20 buck for 2 glasses of erm... "terquila shot" but doesn't taste like it zzz heard from guoz that they nvr add terquila today lol no wonder taste weird why? COZ IT DOESN"T TASTE LIKE TERQUILA AT ALL LOL... boring... was chit chatting all the way and lots of laughter :) when we abt to leave, haha we were dancing away... wa so tiring... and finally i can SHUFFLE HAHA but i still wanna go for popping, locking and grinding the next time :) still learning... yes i get to hug a thai gal this and that and enjoyed but... i can feel deep inside my heart there's a "her" is hating me for doing this... felt the pain too... i hope that she dun come my blog already and just go away... still cant let it go... the pain is slow and constant... but trying to make myself happy all the time... to do that i have to go over board and over the limit... like taking ecstacy... well it seems like i'm still protesting... coz this matter isn't normal!! dun think that i'm acting smart here but i got a feeling like i'm the one who is moving on and someone is still stuck there... hope that my sixth sense is wrong abt this... good that she's saying that she want to 4get abt our precious memory... is that wad i had gave her was all pain? if that's all i gave it to u... i will pray for you and i think that this is the only this i can do... in fact i'm doing this most of the time... u dun have to know why :) u can say that i'm bull shitting wadever... but its already none of ur business... and dun tell anyone that u are sad... coz it's only betraying ur own feeling... if u feel like doing things just go for it BEFORE U REGRET... ai ya think abt wad ck says... its good that we separate... coz i'm really enjoying now :) thx to u... and ya i knew a person weeks ago who told me to at least have faith in god... actually i can see it now... if wad i gave is all pain, what i'm gonna give next is all happiness coz i can see it now...clearly... i'm writing all this with my conscious but not drunk :) i thought that i had the confident but i'm wrong... and i'm slowly feeling more and more strange within my self if this is to go on... but its alright... its wad self conflict that pushes me forward... haiz dun used to it... eveyday got ppl call u and msg u haha haiz she will be back tml :) wad time? i dunno but i will leave my phone by my side as always just to wait for her to call me :) haiz... in my life now there's 2 her now... haiz anyway NO ONE IS LISTENING TO WAD I SAYING ALL THIS WHILE... and i hate it... its not the blog i mean... is ppl... i'm always listening to other's story wadsoever... why?? gonna find the answer... just wads wrong with me... idiot... junwei! u are an idiot!!! haha alright gonna stop here... 6++ already... haha drank so much today and yet still not very drunk... luckily nvr vomit today... k le la gonna blog next time... chill man! everything is going to be alright :) Saturday, 2nd May 2009 blog @ 0623hrs Friday, May 1, 2009 | 5:06 AM | Top
omg... just did an unbelivable thing in my whole antire life zzz was hungry and went to cook meggie mee to eat... it is mee goreng... and cook an egg and here comes the problem LOL was doing something stupid haha! erm lets just go straight to the point... i just ate an egg that it isn't really cook LOL!!! haha tml sure Lau SAI! haha! haiz was watching some documentory about a guy name Al Gore giving talk about global warming... hmm well guess all of u all know wads global warming right? haha k la enuff le i have to go bathe and slp le... its already 5am ++ haha | 1:39 AM | Top
well...just now hui shi and i had a around 2hour plus call... she's going msia to look for her BF :) happy for her... although she's gone for a few days but still miss the day like got ppl msg u and call u to disturb u all that haiz... i know that if i want to go for her now, it would make me the bastard haha so i will just slowly wait but its seems like i'm running out of time coz she's going to marry with her boy next year :( anyway if that realy happen, hope she dun forget to let me know and invite me to their dinner haha WHERE EVER and WHEN EVER haha! i dare to write here coz i find that its an undeniable truth... not before i break up but its after... have lots of doubts with myself also hmm... well i will nvr write everything here so the mystery is up to everyone here to guess though it may create some controversy abt it but haha!! i just like it! coz no one will ever know wad i'm really thinking... wowow dun ever think that u knew me coz this is an ever changing world :) i'm one of the victim too... the changes are so fast that i could not even catch up... i'm old le haha! well its pass 1.30am now... still dunno when then i can slp zzz well :) thats all for today... i will nvr leave the one i love ever again so i will try my best to get her no matter wad wahahaha! i'm such a bastard LOL yea i'm changing LOL haha! idiot...zzz |
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